I have been down the past few days and I'm not sure why it always seems to take me awhile to realize why. Anyways, this song by Jimmy Needham has been my saving prayer for my life..every word is exactly what I desire.
I have built a city here
Half with pride and half with fear
Just wanted a safer place to hide
I don’t want to be safe tonight
I need You like a hurricane
Thunder crashing, wind and rain
To tear my walls down
I’m only Yours now
I need you like a burning flame
A wild fire untamed
To burn these walls down
I’m only Yours now
I’m only Yours now
I am Yours and You are mine
You know far better than I
And if destruction’s what I need
Then I’ll receive it Lord from Thee
Yes, I’ll receive it Lord from Thee
And it’s Your eye in the storm
Watching over me
And it’s Your eye in the storm
Wanting only good for me
And if You are the war
Let me be the casualty
‘Til I’m Yours alone
I am only Yours
I am Yours alone, Lord
I have an entire city inside that is built out of those two things: pride and fear. Every time I listen to this song I am convicted about how I still don't think I have let the Lord totally break through. I am terrified.
The other line that screams at me every time is this: "And if destruction's what I need, then I'll receive it Lord from Thee." This prayer is something that is huge to me. If destruction is what I need - then okay, bring on the rain.
Anyways, this song has been something that I have truly grown to love and pray and hope that the Lord will consume me like that; like a hurricane. As long as He is the eye in the storm, I'm ready for my walls to be torn down so that I can truly be built up in Him.
