Love People.

I just want to love people.

I continued reading Forgotten God today and was once again overwhelmed by new realizations of the Holy Spirit.

I realized that I'm not sure how to pray anymore.

I'm so used to praying for my future and figuring out the "next big step" in my life and I realized that I have never really asked to be led day by day...baby step by baby step.

I seriously feel a HUGE burden lifted off of my shoulders. I'm seeing how I for so long lived life and wanted the Holy Spirit to fit into it..instead of letting Him be the one in charge. Again, it all comes back to my lack of understanding the power of the One inside. Why did I EVER think it was a good idea to live my life and then fit Him in?

Therefore, today I prayed the most simple prayer I have ever prayed about my future. "Lord, I just want to love on people. I want to empower people with a hope in You." I'm not sure what that is going to look like, but I am more excited than words can express to follow the Holy Spirit there.

Anyways, I'm excited for tomorrow. I'm excited for a day to begin learning to sense the Spirit's leading.

Ok...that's it. Just a few more random thoughts.

Oh yeah...I made a list of things I want to do today. On that list were many things but some were:

Grow a garden

Watch Breakfast at Tiffany's

Learn to surf

Get my own puppy - named Indy

Make a music video

So much more depth than that..but that's just a taste.

mmmmmmmmmmmk. goodnight.

His will.

My world was rocked today.

"I think a lot of us need to forget about God's will for my life. God cares more about our response to His Spirit's leading today, in this moment, than about what we intend to do next year. In fact, the decisions we make next year will be profoundly affected by the degree to which we submit to the Spirit right now, in today's decisions." pg. 120

I'm reading Forgotten God by Francis Chan and this chapter that I started today seriously made me stop and realize what he has been trying to say throughout the whole book so far. The KING OF KINGS lives inside of me. This thought is too big to really comprehend but I feel like I'm starting to at least realize the magnitude of this truth.

I have been praying lately for the "big picture." I have been praying for God's will for my life and for more clarity on what I am supposed to do next and for other major decisions I am being faced with. "There are very few people in the Scriptures who received their life plan from God in advance..." This is another part of the chapter that knocked me into place. I think I have been neglecting the Spirit's leading in my life BECAUSE I have been waiting expectation for a picture of my future.

I think have been neglecting the Spirit's leading in my life BECAUSE I have been waiting in expectation for a picture of my future.

Today marked the day where I stopped praying for God's will to be revealed down the road and changed it to a prayer for leading in that day. I do

n't know if I'll have a tomorrow so why pray that way? I have been completely ignorant to the fact that I have missed tapping into the power that is within..

I can't even begin to explain the challenges that this book has been presenting me about my understanding of the Holy Spirit. I'm not sure if this rambling made any sense because I'm still trying to make sense of it in my own mind. Either way, I am excited about this new adventure in my faith that I'm on with and in the Spirit.

I think He's been waiting to take me on the journey I've been looking for.

Job Hunting

I hate it.

I have been searching and searching for jobs in the Denver area and the only ones I can find:

King Soopers - head cashier.

What the heck? I'd be the best freaking cashier they've ever had.

Okay - I might be being a little dramatic. I did find a couple interesting positions..we'll see though. I'm loving life as of lately and here's why:

1. I got to talk to Bethany yesterday on the internet.

2. I get to go to the midwest in 3 weeks for a visit and then fly back to Colorado.

3. I am going to South Dakota for Thanksgiving where I will then win a weight gaining contest with one of my best friends and her family.

4. It's fall.

5. My annual Pumpkin carving day is approaching fast...I'm thinking the classic jack-o-latern face is in store.

it's gotta be the little things.

later.

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Lord, what's next?