wrong.

Have you ever had one of those times in your life when you can't do anything right?
Yeah? Me too.

I feel like I have been going around for weeks trying so hard...but failing at everything I want so badly.

I know the problem. In fact, I've known it for weeks...but when will I start the painful process of tearing down all the barriers? When will I really start living the reality that I know exists and die to the reality that I have created?

Lord, I need more of You.

Oops...

I'll honestly say the reason I haven't been posting is because I forgot my username and password :)

Anyways, my search began a couple of weeks ago and the first thing I found was the Christ is my deliverer. This is something that has a new meaning and understanding for me. I am so thankful for the new reality that Christ will never place me in a situation without being there to deliver me. He truly is an amazing God.

I started reading the book "Experience God" by Henray Blackaby and Claude King..it is incredible. I'm only on the second chapter and I'm already so excited. The idea of the Lord revealing himself through experience is something I have never thought of before. He truly does desire a love relationship with me and through that relationship wants to introduce Himself to me. This is one of the most exciting things I've discovered in awhile. I hope to blog about where this book takes me over the next few weeks...hopefully it will be quite the journey :)

I hope you are all being as blessed by our Creator as I am. Continue to place yourselves in situations where you need the Deliverer; only then will we understand complete dependancy.

In Him always,

it's about time...

I'm just going to start right in...

I decided tonight during my quiet times that I hate how I've been "doing" Christianity. I want to start really searching and really finding out about the reality of Christ. I feel like I've known about Him for years and years and yet, don't know Him hardly at all. If I knew who He was and is, obviously my spiritual life as well as all the other areas of my life would be totally transformed...but they're not. I'm sick of being the "good" Christian girl and doing my devotions and trying to lead others...I want to really get it. I want to KNOW Christ. I want to find and comprehend His characteristics and His love for me. I want to understand what He did for me and how he cares for me. I want...need..no, have to figure this out in order to ever fully grasp who Christ is and what He is all about. If my life is about imitating Him...it's time I start really understanding who He is.

Obviously I have a long way to go...but hopefully..I will be journaling each step. I pray for growth but mostly for clarity and understanding...