all grown up

Well...it's true. Graduation came and went and I got my diploma in the mail yesterday. I kind of feel like Vitamin C's graduation song is the story of life right now.

Overall this week has been pretty relaxing. I stayed at school until Sunday night and hung out with a good friend of mine which was a great way to leave campus..and then got home Monday morning after staying the night on my sister's couch. The weekend was incredible..family there to watch me and my brother drove 8 hours to watch me walk across the platform. I put on my gown the morning of and felt like I was playing dress up. Did I really just finish one of the most memorable chapters of my life?

Anyways, I have a few pictures from the weekend so I'd thought I'd share a few.

It really is amazing how time flies. Thankfully, the past four years only started our friendships. God has been so good.

life as a song

I feel like my life is a song right now. You know how there are times when it feels like everything is in slow motion and there is a song playing in the background as you watch life pass by? That's what I feel like.

There are SO many things happening right now...and I'm loving it and hating it too.

This weekend I flew out to camp to meet the leadership team and work on things for the summer and then I flew back to life as I know it. Life is changing. In 23 days, I'll be driving away from home unsure for the first time about when I will be back. I can't even describe the feeling inside when I think about that.


I am about to walk around campus and tell people goodbye - for the LAST time. This is hard; I don't care how much you may hate school or your place in life right now. Saying goodbye without the comfort of preseason or next semester is HARD. There are people that I have invested in, that have invested in me, people that hold such special places in my heart, and people that I am genuinely going to grieve losing. This campus, these past four years of IWU, changed my life. I am such a different woman today then I was when I walked on to campus four years ago...I am better now then I was; my time spent here changed who I am.



Nevertheless, the past four years and the growing up that has taken place makes the thought of "what's next" nothing short of exciting. I CAN NOT wait for the next step. Sure, I'll be in Colorado for awhile but the door is still wide open for the Lord to take me anywhere. The preparation from the past four years was not in vain...I do feel ready; just sad. I feel 100% sure that the Lord has prepared my heart for graduation but has given me so much in between that I will miss.

I know it sounds like I am contradicting myself and that's because I am. I'm sad and don't want to leave but I'm also excited and ready to pack up and head out. Is there really a better place to be? Am I jealous of people who can't wait for Saturday and won't look back? Heck no. I pity them. God knows I am going to look back and continue to be thankful for His faithfulness, blessings and love that empowered me to move on in strength and trust.

He has been SO good to me and that's why I will be crying Saturday; the bittersweet tears of four great years full of memories.

red and brown

Well, it's happening..

Just picked up my cap and gown and I was a little disappointed.

My tassels are red and brown.

Some people's tassels are peach, others are coral blue, and then there's mine, throw up on my head.

Anyways, this all to say that it is really happening. Graduation really is "right around the corner." The cliche fits.

I finished my last homework assignment ever and have one more day of classes. I have one final next week and then it's time to walk across the stage and become an IWU alumni.


so weird.