canyons and mountains

This is where I am going in 6 days.

This is where I am living after graduation.

i'm just saying.

“Some people, in order to discover God, read books. But there is a great book: the very appearance of created things. Look above you! Look below you! Read it. God, whom you want to discover, never wrote that book with ink. Instead He set before your eyes the things that He had made. Can you ask for a louder voice than that?”
— St. Augustine (354-430)

God is good.

God is good
all the time.

I sat for a bit today and realized how blessed I am. The Lord is so good. His blessings on my life have been so undeserved and yet, He continues to shower me with His love.

Sometimes when I really think about it, when I really think about who is choosing to be good to me, I am completely speechless and am reminded how unworthy I am. Why do I so often expect these things instead of cry out in gratitude because I am blessed at all?

Basically, the point of this post is just a reminder of what the Holy Spirit reminded me today. I have to stop taking for granted the goodness in my life because everything that is good is from the One above and the One above is the Creator of all.

It has absolutely nothing to do with us.

all the time
God is good.

letting go.

The lyrics below are some that have really been on my heart lately. It's a song by one of my favorite bands right now, Tenth Avenue North, a song called "Let it Go."

I've been holding on so tight
Look at these knuckles
They've gone white
I'm fighting for who I wanna be
I'm just trying to find security

But You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one to lose control
You say you will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go.

Well it's hard enough to hear
Harder still, to move beyond this fear
We know there's nothing I can bring,
So tell me what do you want from me?

But You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one to lose control
You say You will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul

Within an hour the other day, the Lord opened up two opportunities for me as far as after graduation goes. Both are great opportunities. One is definitely more logical than the other and is definitely more secure. The other is not as secure and not extremely logical. I've been torn between the two. While I know both are good choices...is one better? Anyways, I haven't made up my mind yet, but this song really states well what my heart is feeling. He says I must lose my life to find it...I really am ready to take a risk with Christ. I'm just trying to discern what His will is shaping up to be.

Like one of my earlier blogs said, I'm ready to live a life that demands dependence. I want the Lord to HAVE to come through.

I guess my prayer is that I learn to let my life go.

seriously?

ALL I DO IS PLAY.

This is my weekly schedule:

Monday: workout, class, work (sitting at the desk), basketball
Tuesday: workout, classes, walleyball
Wednesday: workout, classes, youth group, bowling
Thursday: workout, classes, watch basketball games
Friday: weekend.

i know, right?

Trust me...I'm not complaining...but I do stress out sometimes that I don't stress out.

After last semester I'm totally okay with this even though I'm sure this will change as the semester continues..

needless to say, call me if you need something to do.