letting go.

The lyrics below are some that have really been on my heart lately. It's a song by one of my favorite bands right now, Tenth Avenue North, a song called "Let it Go."

I've been holding on so tight
Look at these knuckles
They've gone white
I'm fighting for who I wanna be
I'm just trying to find security

But You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one to lose control
You say you will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go.

Well it's hard enough to hear
Harder still, to move beyond this fear
We know there's nothing I can bring,
So tell me what do you want from me?

But You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one to lose control
You say You will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul

Within an hour the other day, the Lord opened up two opportunities for me as far as after graduation goes. Both are great opportunities. One is definitely more logical than the other and is definitely more secure. The other is not as secure and not extremely logical. I've been torn between the two. While I know both are good choices...is one better? Anyways, I haven't made up my mind yet, but this song really states well what my heart is feeling. He says I must lose my life to find it...I really am ready to take a risk with Christ. I'm just trying to discern what His will is shaping up to be.

Like one of my earlier blogs said, I'm ready to live a life that demands dependence. I want the Lord to HAVE to come through.

I guess my prayer is that I learn to let my life go.