Monday, July 21, 2008

home..



Well, camp is officially over..and I hate it! I miss the people, the place, the mountain view in the morning and the most beautiful starry sky I've ever seen at night. I can't describe how much this summer has changed my life...I'm a different person but I can't exactly put it into words.
These are the girls that I poured my heart out to all summer...they made up my small group and I couldn't miss them any more than I do.

This is just one picture of some lifelong friends that I have made and became a better person because of. One of the biggest lessons that I learned, that I will try to put into words, is the lesson of loving the day I was given.


I can't say there was one situation or one particular circumstance that led me to this huge lesson the Lord taught me..but it was more of a gradual one. I realized over this summer while I was in Estes, that each day is a day that I "get" to do; it's not something I deserve. The Lord blesses me each and every day with another opportunity to get up and love Him and others the best way I can. I remember sitting in the office one day a few weeks ago and thinking, "I need to love today because the Lord didn't give it to me to waste." I seriously can't explain how much this has changed my out look on life.


No matter what comes my way, no matter what great place I have to leave, and no matter what I might have to say goodbye to; it's up to me to set the tone for my day. If I get up every day choosing that it will be a good day and choosing to work on being like Christ just for the next 24 hours, the day will be better because of it. Again, it's hard to put this totally into words but I can say that I have become a much more content person because of this. I didn't want to leave camp...but I know and am so excited to see what the Lord has planned. There are always going to be places I don't want to go or things I'm too tired to do, but because the day was a gift anyway...my attitude has changed..


I'm not living in the future anymore...I just live one day at a time and try and follow His lead. Not sure if this rambling makes much sense but I'm just trying to write out just one of the many things on my heart. Basically, camp was great and I'm not sure I'll ever be able to thank the Lord enough for giving me this summer and these memories.


Monday, July 14, 2008

Almost home.

I'll finally be home tomorrow...not quite sure how I feel about it.

Today was a struggle for several reasons but mostly for reasons of confusion. I'm looking forward to so much and can't wait to get there but trying hard to figure out where the Lord is taking me and what He is trying to say.

Sometimes I feel so lost and have absolutely no idea where to take my next step. I'm not quite sure that makes sense, but that's what I've got.  I feel like my ideas of my future are being confirmed and shifted all at the same time...I guess it's just a matter of waiting and discerning. Not that this is a bad place to be in...just frustrating at times. 

Anyways, the past few days have been incredible. I have absolutely loved hanging out with my family and we have had some much needed family time. It was my first time in Iowa and can't say I hated it :) 

The Lord is good...even when I'm in one of those places where His timing does not match up to mine; He is still so good to me.

Praying for guidance and following blindly.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Almost over.

My parents are on their way here.
It's July 8th.
I can't believe Camp T is over in about 24 hours. I'm a little numb to it right now...more to come about all of this but I honestly can't believe that my parents roll in tomorrow evening to pick me up. What the junk?!

I couldn't be happier with where I am right now but couldn't be more sad to leave...

I am excited to go home and process all of this...and so thankful for what the Lord has already taught me.
I have made lifelong friends, memories that will last, and have experienced once again, how sovereign the Lord is.

The last five weeks went a bit fast..but I'm ready for whatever He has :)

i LOVE today.

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

...

Sometimes I am just completely lost at what the Lord is doing...

too confused.