heartbroken

This weekend I helped run a youth retreat at school...it took about 15 minutes into the kids arriving for my heart to break.

I met two girls, both freshman in high school; Sarah and Lakin. As the kids arrived, we ordered pizza and sat around and ate dinner before the evening events started so I sat with them. We started talking and during the conversation another female youth leader from another church joined us. Somehow, the discussion turned towards temptations and struggles they are dealing with.

BOTH feel the pressure of sexual impurity. BOTH wonder how it is possible to remain abstinent. These beautiful, bright and fun girls sat in front of me talking about all the girls they see at school walking around 8 months pregnant, preparing their young hearts to become mom's at age 15. They talked about it being perceived as the "norm." After letting the adult leader talk a bit, and after sitting their quietly for the majority of the conversation, all I could think to say was "Girls, it's not meant to be that way. You deserve SO much more than that."

Honestly, in my mind, it isn't news that sexual sin is a huge problem. But when it becomes a face...when it becomes two young girls sitting in front of me, that is when I can hardly take it. Those are the moments where I sit and know that the Lord's heart must break too. I just sat there thinking about what those two daughters of Christ really deserve and what they are settling for and it makes me sick. My heart broke...and I'm not sure it will be able to be mended this side of Heaven.

Sarah and Lakin came and gave me hugs goodbye today...I pray they saw a glimpse this weekend. I pray someday they get what they deserve.